Massivication

I cried friday as I felt that I was useless and exremely stupid. When my car Zach (see earlier post) was broken into and the stereo was stolen, I was sad, but then I felt helpless and less secure when the DMV wouldn't give me a new license. So when I finally did get it after finding the old license I thought I had lost, I was rather perterbed. While having lunch with Tom and Sonya the police called and told said that they had found three of the cards from my wallet that was also taken. My Student Body card, my bank number card and last but not least, my safeway club card...thank goodness for that 3 cent discount on gas...phew!!!

Boy that was odd...I guess this program is just very stressful. I hadn'r broken down in a long time. I do enjoy teaching, and I feel that I will succeed, however I also feel that I have a lot to learn. It was an awesome show that I saw (hugs to Meagan and a shout out to Erin). Sure there were some things here and there, in this musical. I have always loved the music, and I know that it has many operatic elements but I hesitate to call it an Opera. Another comment to Meagan, I wasn't aware that there was a lot of french music in it, to me it sounded decidedly american musical theatre-ish. (I think it was BAT (brianalecthom) tee hee, his initials are BAT, well he is batty, it was he who said french music in your post). I do sympathize with you and your having to work with certain other people.

I miss performing.
I miss late nights at Shari's.
I miss singing.
I miss a lot of things.

I am a busy person and I have an academic career ahead of me. I felt good about my 4.0 and this term so far so good, but grad school is 63% harder than real life. Between the student teaching, classes, and homework there is no time. Yet I need to find a part time job, so I applied at a local video store. I haven't heard back as of yet but i hope I get it. I need a way to be able to buy ink and stuff for school.

Frankly I don't know what the future holds entirely. I know that if I stay on this track I will have the tools for a new and exciting career next year. Now whether I will fall in love with elementary music next term or try and pursue and middle school or high school choir job is unclear. I am excited, scared and nervous about what next year brings, but realizing that a year ago I was wondering where I would be at this moment, I can possibly look forward to my own keys, my own room and my own students. If I have to leave the valley for strange new worlds, I know that I will always have friends here. I do look forward to auditioning for shows again, and seeing what lies ahead.

o/~ So many men seemed destined, to settle for something small, but I won't rest until I know I have it all...So don't ask where I'm going, just listen when I'm gone, and far away you'll hear me singing softly to the dawn...o/~
- Corner of the Sky, Pippin. S. Schwartz